Must... Close... Eyes

I am so tired. Yesterday, I started feeling like I was seriously going to throw up so I took a pill for it. It's a prescription and it's also used as a sedative along with anti-vomiting. I've taken these before and never had the sedative be so effective. I think I've only been awake a total of about five hours throughout the day and I'm very much so ready to go back to sleep. I'm just waiting on Jazz to pass out. I just hope that once I wake up, it'll have finally worn off.

I am officially a registered bone marrow donor now. It's something I've wanted to for years but my fear of needles has held me back. But while I sit here, healthy and procrastinating for fear of a little stick, someone out there could be dying and need my marrow. I had also been under the impression that I had to go where ever the patient was in the US when they needed my marrow to donate. That's not true. I have about a three hour drive to one of the places that takes donated bone marrow and then they will get it to the person who needs it. If I would've had to fly somewhere, I wouldn't have been able to do it. Making my husband take a day off work to drive me somewhere is one thing, making him take a week off, is another. I could be called in a few months, a few years or never. There is another way to donate on the same site but I really don't think I'd be able to. They take all the blood out of your body, filter it through a machine to get out stem cells and then put what's left back in through another IV. I just don't think I could keep myself from passing out through a process that would take that long. I feel guilty as hell saying that but I just couldn't.

Tuesday I go in for my eye doctor appointment. It's the year that they'll be checking the pressure in my eye. It's pretty much a guarantee that I'll pass out during that test. It's why they've put off doing it for so long. It's not even a response that I knew I was going to have when it first happened. The doctor said there's some immediate response in some people that happens when an object touches their eye. I get to be one of those people. :) Maybe now that I'm aware that it happens, I can try and distract my brain during the process.